want to give up

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so I have been try for a baby for like 2yrs with no success. a few cycles ago I think I was. i was late and felt sick and so tired. but the day I tested af showed up. nothing got rid or dulled the cramps and I had huge clots. I have never seen a pos test and am so sick of seeing neg. feel like giving up. how do I keep my head up and stay pos.