Going to get my cycle info out of the way before we get into my confusion with my body rn.

So my cycles can be 20 days, all the way until 30+ days long. My period can last anywheres from 6-8 days. But I almost always ovulate 8 days after my period.

So last month--aug.-- got AF on the 11th lasted until the 16th. Harsh and rough as are my normal periods. Ovulated a week later. Did have unprotected sex multiple times during the time I was ovulating. Really want a baby boy.

So now this month--sept.-- AF showed up early, and didn't stay long at all, and honestly I barely had any cramps what so ever. Which is beyond abnormal for me. Whenever I get my period, it's always heavy and with cramps that will knock me to the floor more often than not the first four days. AF lasted 12th-15th. she came early, but I was actually expecting it because I had been lightly-moderately spotting and getting strange little cramps for about a little under a week. Which means I started spotting only roughly a week after I had finished ovulating. Conveniently I had forgotten to add which day I actually started spotting :/ but anyways, spotting stopped after AF left.

So onto what happened when I started ovulating. Started ovulating on the 25th of this month, like clockwork. Noticed it was a lot more cm than normal, didn't think too much of it seeing as my period was weird too. Usually those two things go hand and hand in a weird cycle for me. But then yesterday, I started spotting between light to heavy. Scared me to death because I never spot when ovulating. No more spotting as of this morning. But around the time of the spotting last night, I had insane lower back cramps, and all day yesterday and all day today, I've had to constantly urinate to the point where if I hold it for even five minutes, my bladder tries to fight back with really bad cramps haha

Now to the symptoms of why I'm questioning if I am pregnant. So for the past two weeks, I've been insanely nauseous and overly emotional. I'm an emotional person, but not like this. For an example, my cat looked at me a week ago and he was annoyed with me and I just started bawling and literally cried about it for an HOUR. Literally an entire hour I hysterically cried because my cat was annoyed with me. But the nausea gets worse with smells, gets better with food, but my zofran only helps for a solid 5 minutes and then it's right back to square one. I literally have zero appetite, but at the same time I feel like I'm starving. Nothing looks or smells good. And I can now smell literally everything and anything, even if I have a stuffy nose. About a week after I ovulated in August, omg did my boobs hurt, and they were so heavy feeling to the point where I wanted to actually cut them off at some points. Before I spotted yesterday, the night before I could not get comfortable in bed. When I laid on my sides, back, or stomach it felt like my stomach and my boobs were 500lb weights. And laying on my stomach actually really hurt my stomach and my boobs even though it took the weighted feeling away. But for the past week, my boobs haven't really hurt--only the other night so far this week-- but my nipples are still darker than normal, and have a darker ring around them, and they've been like this for the past three weeks.

Took two pregnancy tests this morning right after I woke up. Both came out super negative. Not even a slight positive sign after three minutes. Just a very bold negative. The first one though, in the first minute, it did start to form the vertical line, but then went away fairly quickly. Hence why I even bothered to take a second test.

So long story, I'm sorry. I'm just insanely uncomfortable, moody, and nauseated, and desperately need someone to kind of direct me on what to do next or explain why my body is acting like it's pregnant.

I have one test left, that I planned on taking if I don't get AF next month or if anything else that's out of the normal happens. I've been pregnant before, 4 times--all miscarriages before 12 weeks-- and these are my normal pregnancy signs. Which is why I'm so confused on why I'm not getting a positive. The only thing that happened this time around that hasn't ever happened before is spotting midway through ovulation.

Trying really hard to keep myself together through all this because I don't want to get my mom's or my fiancé's hopes up again and have another miscarriage. I have my sister, who's currently 15 weeks pregnant, right by my side for all of this, but seeing as this is 100% her first pregnancy of any kind, she's even a bit more clueless than I am right now.

Anything you know, anything you say, will be greatly appreciated. I don't want to go to a doctor and just waste their time if it turns out that I'm not pregnant. My doctor's are all grumpy and tend to give me attitude, and I'm not emotionally stable enough for their attitudes. Last thing I want to do is break down in their office. 😂😪