I was 6 years old at the time and I spent the night at my cousins house.. my cousin is the same age as me but my abuser was his older brother.. we were watching a movie on the air matress while my cousin that was my age was making popcorn in the kitchen.. me and my abuser were watching the movie and I went to itch my inner thigh because I had got bit by an ant the day before. He looked at me and touched my vagina.. he slowly started rubbing it as I said "what are you doing bubba?" (i called him bubba because he was like a brother to me) and he said "does that feel good?" and I said idk.. he pulled his pants down and put my hand on his penis and I pulled my hand back as fast as I could and that's when my cousin was done making the popcorn he came in the room with me and my abuser.. he continued to touch me under the blanket. I don't know what he was doing so I never told an adult.. he hasn't said a word to me since.. it's been over 7 years now and he's a man now and he has a great life.. I know I should tell my mom but I just feel so guilty and nasty talking about it.. and I don't want to ruin our family and ruin his life for putting him in jail. so I'm stuck in this dilemma and I don't know what to do.