I know relationships aren't about gifts but..

I've been with the father of my child for almost 4 years now and he has never gotten me a gift. We spend Christmas together every other year and I see him put so much time and thought into gifts for his siblings and parents. (Which is really sweet) I don't even get a card/: I've never received a birthday gift, or card. If we go out to eat and I don't have my own money he will either just not take me or make absolute sure I pay him back for my portion of the meal. He once in a blue moon will buy me dinner (like once every 5 months) and not because he's taking me out but because I don't have money or food in my house and I'm really hungry (which doesn't happen very often. And one year while Christmas shopping for his siblings with him, while he was shopping for himself as well I found this REALLY cute scarf that was only 10$ I begged him to get it for me and he finally gave in and said I had to wait to get it on Christmas, but was extremely aggravated he had to buy it.

I guess I was coming here looking to see if I should be upset? But I just feel like when I write this the more sad and pathetic my relationship sounds. I will end up staying anyway so I guess this is just a vent.