So me and my boyfriend have been together almost 3 years now.

It's been a very very rocky up and down relationship. Because after our first 5 months together I found out he had a girl and two kids he lived with. They where together 5 years.

When I found out and confronted him, he said he was never in love with her but he couldn't leave seeing his kids every morning and putting them to bed every night.

It was too late. I was too deep in. I'd fell madly in love with him. But I ended it anyway, because I was pregnant. And I thought after hearing this it was best not to tell him.

I got pressured by friends and family that he should know. So I told him. Eventually he came around and stuck around. Told me he was single from his girl found out. And eventually we started seeing eachother again. This went on for months.

THEN, his girlfriend got in touch with me and I found out they where acc still together. She knew I had his baby, but she stayed with him.

So we ended it again. And he started to beg me back. Saying he did not love her and didn't want to be back with her. And he would sit her down and tel her the truth. And end it. I told him no, just to stay with her. But he told me he has fell so hard for me and can't have a life without me.

He sat her down and told her. And ended it. I left it for a few weeks before getting together again with him, his ex started keeping in touch with me and texting me all the time like we where mates.

But he was still calling to her house all the time to see his kids. And over Christmas time last year, he got both me and her pregnant.

Threwout my pregnancy he stuck by my side and took the relationship to the next level and moved in with me. He promised to have nothing more to do with his ex. That he would stick to taling his kids at weekends. And wasn't taking nothing to do with her pregnancy. But would be a father to the baby when she came.

So do 9 months he stuck by me. Every appointment every much needed back rub, craving, crazy hormones, arguments, it all. He was there. Even at our daughters birth.

But over the 9 months of the pregnancies I was so worried everyday that once the babies came, he would run back to his ex. And we faught about it almost everyday.

As soon as the babies came. Whatsthe first thing he done?

Ended our relationship saying we needed time apart, and started running to his ex's house everyday. "To see his kids apparently" I've never felt so hurt.

Now he wants us to get back together and I'm terrified he will still call to her house again all the time and start leading her on. Just like christmas time. I know the best thing for me is to get rid of him. But I really do love him and I wish it could work somehow.

I had amazing out of this world sex with him last night. But while hesdoing this I really regret it bwcauseI think I'm just giving in to him wanting to live a double life.