Weird month

Hey guys. This month has been so weird. After a full year of going crazy with TTC. I became obsessed with it. Symptom checking daily. Obsessed with sex where it wasn't even fun anymore. Crying ever single time I got my period and wanting to murder any girl who got pregnant before me. Since we got married in July I decided to just calm down and let whatever happens, happen.

Well this month we had sex over the course of the month multiple time. Nothing crazy but def did the deed out fair share. My period started sept 3rd with light spotting and turned into a full blown period so I knew I was out for august. I was okay with that. Well on CD 24 (which was sept 27th) around 3:30pm I went to the bathroom and notice a couple drops of light pink blood. I wiped. It was light pinkish brown and with some sticky cm. I thought my period was starting but flags went up when I realized I was early. I tend to be late... but never early. This spotting last only about 5 hours and hasn't come back since. That was 4 days ago. Now yesterday and today I've been cramps and feeling like at is coming, but no show thus far. My excitement was high thinking okay possible implantation. Bleeding, but I've taken two hpt and both negative. I'm so confused....

Please comment your opinions. I hate feeling crazy