MY FIRST TWO MONTHS WITH A NEWBORN IN PAIN. (Long story )

After three months I'm ready to write my story, I hope this story makes a difference to any mom. This is not about my labor and delivery. This is what happen after I got home from the hospital.

After I was discharged from the hospital I went home and I was extremely excited to start my new journey with my family. My parents were planing on staying with me for the first two months to help me with anything I needed with my baby due that I'm a first time mom. Well, the first week that my baby was in this world was excellent my breast milk supply was coming. The baby wasn't latching but I would pump and give it to her. I would breast feed during the day and formula at night. My mother helped me a lot. While I pump she would feed the baby or change her diaper. Once my baby girl turned two weeks was when things changed. My baby started to become fussy, she would cry but at that time I was able to sooth her and make her go back to sleep. At my one week appt, I told the pediatrician that my baby cries wasn't a normal cry I also told her that I thought she was going through some colics. Her answer was

" I HATE WHEN NEW PARENTS COME TO ME THINKING THAT IT THE BABY IS FUSSY IS BECAUSE THE BABY HAS COLIC! IS NORMAL FOR A BABY TO BE FUSSY!!"

At that moment I regret it having that pediatrician (this ped was recommended by my sister in law) I wanted a pediatrician that help me not think that I'm a dumb ass.... Well, days kept passing by and the crying was more and more constant. I changed her formula, and gave her enfamil gentelease, to see if it was colic.... didn't work! When the baby was 15 days old I went again to see her pediatrician, I told her that I know babies can be fussy but her crying wasn't a fussy crying her crying was like she was in pain. She checked her and told me that my baby was fine that she was just fussy. Exactly at 15 days old my newborn got worst she started crying every time I would feed her. I stopped breastfeeding her because I thought that it was something with my breastmilk. I changed her formula again to enfamil A.R nothing worked. When she was 17 days old she cried sooo much that she even forgot how to breath. That day I told my husband I'm done I'm taking her to another pediatrician but in the same association. When I took her the stupid pediatrician told me the same. Told me that babies are fussy all the time because is a newborn thing. I told her that my baby can't even drink her formula without crying every time that she tries to drink she would cry and cry. She told me show me how you feed her, I did, i try to give her her bottle in front of the pediatrician and she saw that I wasn't lying she saw that my baby was in pain.

Her answer was " your baby has silent reflux, the acid of her stomach goes up when she gets fed that is why she cries." AWESOME I GOT ANSWERS I told my self.

That pediatrician send me home with ZANTAC and some other medicine that I dont remember the name. Well, I got home were my mom and my sister were waiting for me to tell them what was going on. After I told them, my sister the next day asked her ped about the medicine my daughter was drinking. ( my sister daughters pediatrician was my pediatrician growing up, back when I used to live in Cuba, she talks very little English so I decided to select the other one due that my husband doesn't talk Spanish— WORST DECISION I HAVE EVER MADE🤦🏼‍♀️)

After she commented her pediatrician about the medicine my daughter daughter was drinking she told her to tell me to stop the medicine as soon as possible — not the Zantac the other medicine that I don't remember right now the name. She said that medicine tends to cause ulcers in the intestines. Something told me to listen to her, and I stoped completely that medicine.

My daughter kept crying and crying to the point that she used to cry for 2 hours straight. My mom had to stay with me 24/7 I couldn't deal with it anymore. All I asked my mom was "why god gave me a little girl in pain, why?????" I knew she cried because she was in terrible pain. I went crying to my husband I told him that it was my fault, it was my fault because of my lack of healthy meals that I ate when i was pregnant, maybe was because I got induce at 39 weeks ? Because I didn't wait the 40 and maybe that was why her muscle that holds the acid reflux wasn't completely mature ? All I did was blame myself. I prayed to god to many times! I was desperate. All I did was cry, I didn't had strength to see her like that.

After a week of seeing that Zantac wasn't working I told my husband pack that we are going to "Miami children hospital " there are going to give us answers. This little girl can't be having just silent reflux she is crying way to much." We packed and we left. There they did so many exams to her, they even put a catheter in her vagina to extract her urine (they missed it so many times that I had to leave the room) my daughter was crying and crying and crying. To the point that she would cry 20 hours out or 24 hours in a day. I wasn't sleeping or eating I was so stress out.

When I was in the hospital they told me the same thing that the pediatrician told me, that she had silent reflux and that I was feeding her way to much. In that piece of shit hospital a doctor never saw my daughter, was only interns. Like are you fucking kidding me ?? How in a hospital a doctor is not going to pass to see my daughter. We spend the night and every exam that they did To my daughter came out negative. My sister called her pediatrician again and she told her to tell me to ask for a lactose and protein allergies test. The test consist of three drops of some medicine there in her milk then they have to run an X-ray. They told me that they couldn't do it because her poop analysis came back negative. I beg and beg and nothing. Well, went back home with no answers. Finally I made some calls and changed my insurance to my sister pediatrician but the only bad thing was that I had to wait 15 days in order for the pediatrician to see her. In those 15 days all my daughter did was cry Day and night. Till that day finally arrived. She saw my daughter and checked her and asked me a couple of question about her. She told me. She doesn't have silent reflux what she was is that she is either lactose intolerant or allergic to the protein in the milk. She send me to a gastro. When I was there again he asked me a couple of question and he said " what you daughter has is that she is allergic to the protein in the milk" feed her alimentum by similac and give her 3 days for her system to clear out. Well ladies, that was what my daughter has. She is allergic to the protein. Now she is like a normal baby. She smiles and she doesn't cry no more. I still can't believe it. I call my new pediatrician "MY SWEET ANGEL" because of her my daughter doesn't cry no more.

I'm wiring my story to tell moms out there, please choose carefully your newborn pediatrician. I didn't, my sister in law refer her to me and I didn't even do my research one her. That women is a fucking bitch and I told my husband if I ever see her in the street hold me because I would jump on her and kill her. Because of her my daughter was in pain the first 2 months of her life. And as the hospital, I'm currently searching for another hospital to take my daughter whenever she gets sick because that hostal sucks. How are going to charge me thousands of dollars and tell me that the doctor is to busy to see my daughter ?

Well ladies I hope this story helps anyone out there. And I'm sorry that is a long one.

Just born

15 days born. I remember that after this pic she started crying and I couldnt do a thing to sooth her .

My happy baby now, this pic was last week when she turned 3 months.