Over this...

November marks one year of TTC. One year of being disappointed. One year of negative tests. And one year of lying to people that we, "just aren't ready to start trying yet." I don't know what's worse, seeing all the new moms with their babies and feeling awful for envying them. Or maybe it's hearing everyone tell us what awesome parents we would be. Maybe it's listening to our parents beg us for grandkids already. Or maybe it's all of the above. I just feel so defeated and upset and hopeless. So impatient to finally hold my own baby in my arms. To get to announce to my husband that he's going to be a dad.... To see that positive.

I'm going to keep trying, I have to keep trying. But I just needed to vent..... Sorry for the negativity.