Hello guys I wanted to post this anon because I am embarassed, today I was hanging with a guy I've been hanging with since 6th grade he is a close friend of mine and I felt I could trust him, while we were hanging out in my room something we do often because it's just watching movies or something he got on top of me and I told him several time to get off of me ( might I mention i was in a dress today) and he would not I kicked him off of me finally to which he just grabbed me and tried to reassure me I was "okay " while I told him several times to stop and get off of me tellin him I did not want to have sex with him, now here's where I'm worried i may be in the wrong , while I was telling him I did not want to have sex while I hit him to get him off of me I did not use a lot of force because I didn't want to hurt him, obviously eventually he put it in ( at that point I became more forceful with my actions to stop it) and I'm just very confused on how to look at it, I feel as I in a way I have been raped considering I did not want it o happen and made it very clear I did not want it to happen, but because I did not forcefully attack him ( quite frankly I am a bit scared too he's bigger than me ) what would be someone else's view on my situation? I'm sorry if I sound like a fool.