Taking a test at 10dpo

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So, when I got my first bfp, I kept getting negatives until the day of my missed period . That day I got my first ever bfp. Sadly, to lose it a few days later. I'm testing today even though I know there is a chance it'll say negative because of my experience last time. I'm still afraid to feel disappointed though..just trying to remind myself that I'm not out until AF arrives. Tomorrow is 1 month since my miscarriage 😔