Hey everyone! Was kinda just hoping to vent . . It’s nice to have a place, a group of women that go through what you are, and give there a opinions freely. I never thought getting pregnant would be this difficult where I’d have to track, temp, test and spend all this money To receive that Big Fat No. I’m 25 years old and I had an tubal pregnancy a little over a year ago. It was a planned pregnancy so it was definitely a sad sad day for us. Once My SO and I waited the three months we started trying again immediately for our Rainbow Baby with no luck. I feel discouraged and broken. Every month my period shows up I get more upset than I was the month before. We can’t understand why it’s not happening.. he has 2 children already from a previous relationship, making it that much more heartbreaking knowing that he isn’t the problem. What if it is in fact me? When I had my left tube removed and went for the post op check up my gyn told me that there is no sign of infertility. That I’ll still be able to be a mother, So what’s going on? Then I thought stress might have been playing a bigger part in all this. I was addicted to becoming a mother. So I stopped stressing it (well I’m trying) and still no luck. Everyone around me is either getting pregnant or married and I’m just a sitting duck. It’s hard when you want something so bad and you think you did it all right till AF shows up and rains on your parade. My time will come, one day. Till then I have to consider this as god has a plan for me, but I can’t help to hope that his plan blesses me with my rainbow baby soon. . God Bless all you Mother’s to be && baby dust to all of you, like me, trying there absolute hardest to be a mom.