Needing a hint of encouragement

Hi ladies! I was hoping to get some encouragement. My husband and I have been trying for over a year now, and I am currently almost 2 weeks late for my period. I have many of the signs of early pregnancy such as: sore boobs, nausea, tiredness, mood swings, headaches, sore nipples, back pain, and mild cramping. Every month I would test, get my hopes up, and get BFN. I am very hesitant on testing due to seeing how excited my husband is at the thought. After a year of trying and never getting our BFP I put myself down saying maybe I was broken. And I don't want to let us both down if I am not again this month. Help? 😓