I’m I bad for thinking this way???

I just lost my baby girl two weeks again when I was 5 months pregnant. I’m trying to be normal again but it’s just not working out. I’m thinking about trying again for another baby but I’m feeling guilty because I feel like I’m just pushing her to the said. I just don’t like the feeling of being lonely anymore. She was supposed to be the one to keep me company. She was doing that since the day I find out about her. I’m not trying to replace her or anything. Just want my dreams of having kids to come true.