My husband and I have known since we were 19 that it would be difficult for us to have children. 6 months into our relationship, he was diagnosed with cancer. He's cancer free now (10 years later), but after chemotherapy and a surgery - it left us with a condition called Retrograde Ejaculation. It's a condition where the sperm goes backward into the bladder instead of out the urethra during ejaculation.

Sensations and everything are still the same, just no mess afterward.

Well when you're 19 - this doesn't bother you. Yay! No birth control! No mess!

Well, we've been together 10 years now and have been wanting to start our family for 3 years... and obviously this has Come back to haunt us.

We did see a fertility doctor last year and were told that our only option was <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> ICSI. Our insurance doesn't have any coverage for that so it felt impossible to go that route... prices starting at 15k and up.

There are some "home methods" we have read up on though. We've been actively trying the home methods for the last 3 months. (We've tried a couple of times in previous years as well but we didn't see much progress)

Anyway, I just got AF yesterday and was devastated because she arrived 2 days earlier than expected... so I've been emotionally drained and crying because we've failed yet again to get pregnant.

I was griping my disappointment to him and he texts me these messages

My husband is seriously the sweetest and the greatest thing... if we ever do get the opportunity to conceive children... our babies will be so lucky to have him as their father ❤️