I'm a very shitty mom.... Sometimes I can't help it. Well my boyfriend is the time of guy that if you his queen (me) or princess (our daughter). He will go beyond lengths to make sure I'm not sad, mad, hurting or ANYTHING negative. For a long time it was just us...you know. I was his world. He gave all his love to me & no one else matter more than me. I was his babygirl, heart love & soul. I know it might sound like I'm tooting my own horn here BUT I'm not. I'm serious this is the type of person he is and he let's it be known. It's a long story but we already knew if I got pregnant it would be a girl. Anyways the we finally got to that bridge where I got pregnant. So OK. Then we got to the bridge where we found out we were havig a girl...You know so OK. He has always been loving & excited about the thought of having a girl. Anyways later I start getting the feeling of Jealousy. I'm not saying "OMG FUCK MY DAUGHTER THATS MY LOVE AND WHAT NOT" no no no. IDK how to explain it. For so long I was the center of love and attention from my handsome. Like I felt I was going to just be forgotten. I remember crying so bad about it. (of course I was pregnant at the time) NOW almost 8 months after she is born. I still find myself sometimes a LITTLE jealous. It's not a hate jealous, it's more that. I think the reason is because I NEVER knew my father growing up. The love that her & her father will have between each other, just that bond. I will never begin to come close to understand. I think that's why I will always be a little jealous of my daughter. However my happiness that she has a father to wipe her tears. Be there for her break ups. Father & daughter dances. Just someone to her "first love". THAT will always outweigh my jealousy. God sent me & my babygirl this amazing man. I thank you my lord for him. ❤

UPDATE: We I'm not mad but 98% of you totally didn't understand what the hell I was saying. It's like all you read was oh we the title was "jealous of my daughter" well that's it that's all to the post. nothing else. Uh no. I'm a sad jealous as in It brings me happy tears to see my daughter creat this bond growing up. It just finally first hand I get to see what I missed out on. THAT'S ALL. I don't hate my daughter. I don't resent her. If you guys opened your damn eyes and actually paid attention to what I wrote. you would see I'm so grateful my babygirl has her daddy even if I didn't have one growing up.