Maybe marriage is not for me

In relationships there's do's and don'ts it seems like I'm tired of talking about something then when the situations reoccurs we're right back like nothing was ever established..now I'm getting bored.We discussed marriage but that doesn't seem like the route he wants to take he claims he does but I don't believe him now I feel like if we shaking up why not get married and if that's not something you want to do I need to be free so I can find a man that wants to marry me I don't want to be in another relationship for years and the outcome is nothing but I don't want to rush and get married and get divorce but you can make me a baby moma and not a wife don't get me wrong he's a good man ❤️but I'm damned if I do and damned if i dont🤷🏽‍♀️