Hello everyone,

I just needed to post something somewhere and get some things off my chest anonymously as I feel my life is heading in a downward spiral.

I’m living with my ex partner of whom I was with for 5 years but left due to abuse, I left here and went home to my mum. However her house flooded and she got emergency accommodation, but I needed to be close to work and mums house rented by the insurance company was too far away. Hence why I’m here again. That was my mistake and where I went wrong 😔 we had a one night stand in May and I ended up pregnant (I kept baby and I love him to pieces)

Then about 2 months later in July, when I had not long found out about being pregnant i unfortunately lost my job because of an argument between myself and an older employee which I didn’t cause. I wasn’t able to get another job as no where was really looking and I’m not exactly qualified to do a lot. So after around 2 months of trying to look I gave up. I then had to take my car off the road because of not being able to afford insurance and fuel. So I’ve had to claim some job seekers (UK) to help me out with food etc just until I can get back on my feet. So now not being able to go out or anything I’m stuck in this flat whilst my ex is at work by myself staring at the same 4 walls day in day out. Then when he comes home in a bad mood after a bad day he starts arguments with me over things that aren’t my fault like he used to. Since I’ve been pregnant I’ve fallen out with most of my friends because they’re too busy living their lives and don’t understand that I simply need someone to talk to. I suppose they got tired of me texting them all the time and asking them to come round and keep me company for an hour or 2. When my ex comes back and argues I can’t go nowhere as my car is off the road and I’m in a new build estate where nothing is really happening and I’m miles from anywhere. I see my mum from time to time but she’s too busy making sure her house is being fixed up properly as well as working herself. My neighbours are all older so I don’t have a lot in common with them. So all the time I’m stuck here doing not a lot really 😩

I’m sorry for the long and negative post I’m just feeling a bit down about things right now and needed to post it somewhere and get it off my chest really. I just can’t wait to get back on my feet and back out working when my son is old enough to not need me as much as he will when he’s born in January. Thank you for reading if you get this far 😔