Thinking I’m pregnant

I really wish I could be confident in taking a pregnancy test...... I don’t wanna take it and be disappointed.

I’ve been having back pains for 2 days. Ive been going to the bathroom more often. I’ve been really gassy. I haven’t really felt nauseous very much but if I lay there in my own thoughts that’s when I get nauseous. I’ve felt more tired than usual even though my husband thinks I’m always tired.

I really don’t have confidence. I really wish I could just take one and be really really happy. We’ve been trying for over a year. Been to the doctor and all that jazz and still nothing.... I’m starting to think it’s never gonna happen.