THE FRUSTRATION!!!! 😖😖😖😖😩😰😟

Hey ladies! I am a 33 year old woman almost 34 I have been ttc for 2 years and a couple of months. The frustration is most defiantly real. In the beginning I had irregular cycles due to birth control after 6 months of hormone balance got it all under control. Cycle length 25 to 28 days with a 5 day menstrual. Well as of now my last cycle was August 19th af lasted 5 days. My next cycle was supposed to begin Sept 16th only spotted 2 days before very light pinkish and that Saturday and Sunday once in the morning each time. still no Af and still all BFN on hpt. Did blood work on the 27th of sept also BFN........ THE FRUSTRATION IS AWFUL MAKES ME WANNA CRY FOR NOT KNOWING ANYTHING. WHAT DO I DO??? Help!!!!! PLEASE PLEASE!!!