Depressed 😭 Road block

My 3rd baby girl is a 10 days old. Right after she was born I knew something was off about her latch. I breastfed my 2nd daughter for 11 months so I knew her latch was wrong. Sure enough my fear of tongue tie was confirmed. At 4 days old she had the tie clipped but the doctor warned and hinted it may not be enough and she might need a deeper cut done by an ENT since her tie was tight. Well it's been several days and after another check with the lactation nurse it looks like she probably needs the 2nd procedure after all. I don't want to put her through another painful procedure with the risk she may not latch still because of nipple confusion. My first daughter was tongue tied and never latched from nipple confusion. it was just so much stress that I just don't wanna force it and go through the nightmare again. So I talked with the lactation nurse about exclusively pumping and I feel that is best. I respond very well to the pump and have a very good supply.

I am just bummed I won't have that Bonding time like I did with my 2nd. My husband is mad at me for tossing in the towel so early. He was mad at me with my first too when I stopped at 4 weeks because I had hit the wall. I was crying all the time and was in a bad spot mentally. I told him i won't go to that dark place again especially with 3 kids.