Social Anxiety is keeping me back..

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so depressed because my life just feels stuck. I have no friends, I haven't had someone who isn't family text me in over 4 years. In high school I had a few really close friends but after we graduated they all either moved away or just wouldn't speak to me.

I also feel stuck in place because I can't get a job. I've had my own childcare business for about 5 years and 3 out of the 5 kids are my family. Being a glorified babysitter make very little money is not my passion. I would love to be a esthetician. But when I think deeper, there's a few problems that shouldnt bother me but do. One issue is having to interact with strangers everyday, I want to talk to people it's just very hard for me. My second issue is money, I obviously need to pay for school which means I need a job, I've had 17 interviews at 17 different places in the past 4 months and have been rejected at all of them. I know it's because I don't know how to properly interact with people. I probably scared the interviewer when my entire body turns blood red from the anxiety. I have talked to a therapist that I no longer see but he had suggested applying for disability because I have a hard to interacting with people but honestly that just seems like a cop out. I don't see myself as disabled and unable to work. I just need help fixing myself.

Does anyone else suffer from social anxiety? If so, have you improved? I dont want people commenting saying "put yourself out there and you'll get over it" or "it's just a phase get over it" I've dealt with this my whole life and I have put my self out there my whole life and I'm still trapped inside my own mind. I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm finding it hard to see myself having a happy and successful life..

I'd love to hear some anxiety success stories ❤️