I feel like I’m becoming depressed

My baby was born with largynomalacia. His airways are not completely hardened so he’s a noisy breather and eater. He also has acid reflux because of this issue. On top of that he is dairy intolerant. He wakes up every morning around 3 grunting squirming and screaming and goes in and out of sleep. The 2 pediatricians I took him to don’t seem to concerned. One said it was reflux and prescribed Pepcid. The other said to give him 3 ml of apple juice. I just feel like he is always uncomfortable and it breaks my heart. I started bringing him to bed with us around 3 am and now he just sleeps in bed with us from the start of the night. He only wants to sleep in my arms now for night and naps. He also comfort feeds a lot through the night because he is so uncomfortable.

I told my husband I want to stay home with him for the first year. I know we can afford it but he doesn’t want me to. I can’t imagine him going to daycare. Who’s going to hold him while he sleeps? :( I won’t be there to comfort feed him :(

I just feel lost and upset. I don’t know how to move forward. Do I start training my 2 month old to stop nursing for comfort even though he often feels uncomfortable because of reflux? Do I start putting him back in his bassinet to get used to being more independent and self-soothing?

I know it might not be a big deal but my heart hurts. I just always want to be there to comfort my baby especially with all of his issues he and if he goes to daycare I won’t be able to.