It's raining and I'm glad 😭😭

Right now I'm driving and just thinking about how hard it has been to ttc !!! I can't take it anymore !! I feel worthless .. I've been with this man for years and we both want a baby so bad . I feel like a failure !! I've been praying so much .. it hurts so bad ..I just burst out in tears while I'm driving and I'm glad it's raining so nobody could see my face covered in tears !! For everyone who was blessed with a positive already have a baby you should be so thankful because this has to be the worst feeling in the world ! I can't stop crying ... I just wish God will answer my prayers ! 😭😭😭😭🙏