Need to get this out.

I no longer know how to live happily? Lately I've just been going through the motions of life. I've lost touch with almost every friend I've had, mostly because we are at different stages in life. I'm 22 and single so the majority of them are engaged, married or having babies. I no longer know how to connect with them about life in general so I definitely couldn't tell anyone this. I'm not suicidal, but I'm not happy. Meeting new people has always terrified me, I've always been the awkward, chubby new kid(we moved a lot) that was always picked on constantly, so that may have something to do with it. I don't know what I want in life and I just feel lost and numb. I'm not sad, angry, it's just a constant blah feeling with a few moments of true emotion mixed in.