I can't accept it

So, yesterday, my 84 year old grandmother passed away. She was the strongest woman I have ever know... She helped raise me for 17 of my 22 years and was still around after that... I can't bring myself to accept that she is gone... it just feels like she is out of town. I can't wrap my head around it but, I've been nothing but sick to my stomach, exhausted, and crying off and on... God, I miss her though... I just wish I could see her now, healthy and not in pain

this is me and her last thanksgiving