okay so long story short I've been TTC for 6 going on 7 years.. I've never gotten pregnant.. and only my mom and boyfriend and cousin knows my struggles and pain.. and hurt behind this.. well

my cousins baby's father .. had other kids with another woman but they are unfit parents, cps came and took their kids away..

he called my cousin asking her to please take his kids so they won't be in the system.. she agreeded only if he signs all rights of the kids over to her. it's a 1 year in a half lil boy and a 3 month year old girl.

now she has ran this pass me before as a what if because we had a feeling this would happen.... she said " if I too get the kids , would you want the lil girl" I thought about it and said yes

well she calls me today in a panic saying she was on her way to her child's father he called her frantic because cps were coming to take the children. she asks do I want the little girl.. I kind of froze.. idk why but I did

I have dreams of being a mother I'm 27 years old my party days are over .. I'm financially stable.. I feel like I'm ready but still there is some hesitation I haven't even ran it pass my boyfriend..

idk what to do or why I froze