Hemorrhoids?

So I'm 36 weeks pregnant now and have been able to go to the bathroom more easily well even though I'm not struggling I have gotten a hemorrhoid and I am so beside myself. I feel so gross and scared that once my husband finds out, he'll be disgusted with me. I am just so worried and so scared. I just want it to stop hurting and I want to not feel so self-conscious about it. I honestly just want to cry; I mean I get it's part of pregnancy for some woman and I'm handling the weight gain and handling the stretch marks but for me this has crossed a line and I don't know how to feel about it!😭👎🏻