A while ago I posted about a guy who I agreed to have sex with, yet he raped me because he took the condom off, he forced me to do things I didn’t want to, I almost passed out... that was another topic. I came home and I was crying with anger but I said “Lord, I forgive him. You bless him so he doesn’t do this to another girl”. And after that we never talked and I obviously didn’t want to. It was a horrible experience to me. I deleted everything I had from him except for Instagram. Then before I unfollowed him I checked his tagged photos. There was one that said “pray for my friend, he got severely injured”. I didn’t believe it even though I saw it on the news. I unfollowed and moved on. Then a few weeks after I got a bit concerned and started to look for the names of those injured but there was nothing. Again, I didn’t think he got injured. Today I come across him on Facebook. He was on my suggestion list. I went in to try to see if he was really injured but there was nothing. Then there’s a picture of someone who somehow looks very familiar but burned, one of his friend’s profile picture. I looked and that was his sister’s profile and that was him. In bed. Hospitalized because he got burned very bad. My blood rushed to my brain. Is it really? He was still on my recents so with the dignity I had left I texted and asked if he was okay. He said “I was severely burnt and in a coma for 2 weeks but I’m better now”. He even sent me pictures and was joking and being positive about it. I by any means do not want to ever go back with him in any sexual way or relationship. We were friends but after what he did I just feel like he still doesn’t get that he did something wrong. But I also blame myself because I agreed too even though it wasn’t what I planned. He told me to please keep texting him. I feel terrible. I honestly didn’t ask for nothing bad to happen to him, instead I sent blessings to him because that’s the way I know. I don’t believe in hate but I believe in forgiving. Am I wrong for checking on him? Like I said he raped me but he probably doesn’t know he did that to me and why.