Heartbroken 💔

There’s so much that I can take.. ever since I fell pregnant my partners been selfish and distant. Doesn’t even talk to me much either, until there was a time where I was so badly heartbroken because of my being in floods of tears everyday wondering what’s went wrong in our relationship? He knows I love him and treat him so dearly! He knows I’ve always put him first and always did everything for him. Why is it ok for him to elbow me to the side as if I’m nothing to him in return?

I want this baby and I told him I want this baby. I was so upset because I felt so confused I decided to be 50/50 about this baby as the way things were going between us was messy. He hasn’t been supportive, I decided to book myself an appointment for it then starts to change his mind and tell me to not get rid of the baby? It’s been a week I haven’t seen him I’ve been so stressed and the amount of tears I’ve been in the past week has truly made me scared that I’ll go through a miscarriage as the stress is so intense.

The night I’m suppose to see him and stay at his for the weekend he decides to be so pissed out of his head he decided to piss On the floor infront of all PUBLIC PEOPLE.. I was so disgusted! 😖😡 he knew he was seeing me for the weekend but decided to sit in my car reeking of bloody alcohol knowing that I’m pregnant also telling me how “fucked” he is. I was and am so disappointed in him 😞 I’m so let down I’ve been looking forward to seeing him all week despite the way he’s been with me the father of my child rather gets pissed than spend the night with me 😞 had a midwife appointment the next morning and I ended up turning up by myself to it. I have no choices what to think anymore.. I’m so broken and feel like he genuinely doesn’t care about me or my baby.