Around 9 weeks I started to have lots of brown discharge with no cramping. I called my doctor and she said it was normal. I was still freaking out having read about so many miscarriages that started that way. I went for my first appointment that week and we got to see the baby everything was normal. So relieved. However two days later I was bleeding red blood. Went to see my doctor 3 days later and AGAIN everything looked fine and baby was good. Two days later I started bleeding heavily (like hemorrhaging) and having heavy cramping, went to ER that night and my levels STILL looked fine and baby was okay. Went home and two hours later I couldn't even stand how much pain I was in. I got into my obgyn that morning. I had to wear 5 layers of clothing, I was bleeding so much. She took an ultrasound and the baby was gone at 10 weeks 2 days 😞 She advised me to have a D&C; done that day and so I did. Afterwards, there was no pain but I spotted/bled slightly for almost two weeks.

I was obsessed with getting my body back to normal afterwards. Every day I bleed seemed like an eternity and I knew that I'd have to stop bleeding if we were to conceive again. I finally stopped, and immediately started taking ovulation tests. I was worried that I wouldn't ovulate before an actual period was had, but we did get a positive ovulation test about 17 days post D&C.;

Around 5 post ovulation I started to feel super nauseous, and just hot natured in general. I knew it was too early to take a test, and def too early to be feeling morning sickness but I bought an early first response test anyway. I looked at it forever after I tested and it def seemed negative until I started (perhaps imaginary at first) to see a double pink (faint) line. I was overjoyed.

So since then I have gotten a positive digital test, but I have been so anxious and nervous at every feeling, every symptom, every trip to the bathroom. Waiting for another miscarriage to happen. Thinking my symptoms aren't enough. Driving myself crazy. Any advice to make it through this time without driving myself or my husband crazy? I am so scared of going through all this again 😞