How would you feel?

My partner and I don’t have intimate moments a lot and tonight we finally were having a moment. I was talking to him earlier that my consilor said to me something that has made me think my whole life. It didn’t really hit me until this afternoon.

He was in the middle of doing things to me and I got so overwhelmed with thoughts and emotions that I broke down..

I felt horrid that I did this to him.. he asked why I didn’t tell him sooner. I told him that I didn’t want him to think it was him. He said “ I don’t” and instantly broke and fell into his arms.

I have been struggling with my mental health recently and dealing with some deep stuff in my therapy sessions.

I feel so ashamsed that it came on so suddenly. I was a mess and I stopped and regained myself and went to talk to my partner but he fell asleep.

There’s apart of me that feels so guilty that I have now let my mental health effect us.. but I also feel alone right now even though he is right next to me. I don’t want to wake him as he has work tomorrow..