I know...

I know I'm going to get a lot of nasty comments. I'm also aware that I probably shouldn't be posting this at all, but I just need to get this out before I lose my mind.

I'm in love with someone I can never be with. He is forbidden to me, yet I still yearn to be with him. You see, there are three major issues:

1. We're both married.

2. I feel like he feels the same, but I can't be sure.

3. .... We're siblings. Step siblings.

Before everyone jumps to conclusions, we're not blood related. Our parents we're together, got married and had kids. And divorced. So we share siblings.

Obliviously all of these things prevent any relationship other than a familial one, but I've been in love with him since we were about 9 and 10. I'm now 29 and he's 30. We are nearly inseparable. Even though he has his life and I have mine, and we're on opposite sides of the country, we talk often and miss one another immensely. He wants me to move to where he is, but I have a family, and where I am now, it's best for my daughter's education that I don't leave for a while. When I do move, my husband is staunchly against anywhere but his home state. They are not the same state.

I don't know what to do. I feel like I'll never find true happiness if I can't be with him. Just being around him, everything is okay. being away from him is torture. And because of our life situations, I know we could never be together. But being without him, even a if it's only as a best friend, I almost can't breathe.

There are so many things he has said and done, things that lead me to believe he loves me too, but it's not like I can ask him out right. I'm just lost and confused. And because of this, I have no one else to talk to.

If anyone has anything constructive or supportive to say, I'd really appreciate it. Nasty comments will be down voted and hidden. So they won't appear to me and won't matter.

******Edit********

I just want to put something out there because I'm getting a lot of flack for this post and I knew I would.

Here's a bit of clarification.

Before either of us were married, we'd do everything together. He would do things that only couples would do. For example, he'd talk about sexual things. He would send me nude photos, and make sexual advances. He groped me, and when we'd rough house, he'd pin me below him, and give me looks. He's asked me to sleep with him, and tells me he loves me all the time.

Now, I know that's not normal for siblings. at least, any that I've ever met. He's always looking out for my well being and making sure I'm taken care of. That can be the role of an older brother, yes. But the way he does it... he goes out of his way, even if it means it's a detriment to himself, to take care of me if I need it.

So, yes, there's more to the story. I just don't know what to do.

ALSO, I do love my husband. I would never want to hurt him. I should also clarify, before we even began dating, I told him most of this. He KNOWS how I felt. So I'm not keeping secrets.