Why is it never me!

Kira

So I’ve been trying for what seems like forever. It’s actually been just over 2 years. Having seen my doctor and now been referred to the hospital I’ve been told that it’s very unlikely that I’m ovulating...this may be due to the fact that I’m overweight but they can’t say for sure and will not help me until I’m at what they perceive as the ideal weight! I’ve now lost almost 3 stone but unfortunately are still not there :( nor do I think I will ever be however I really felt like I ovulated this month and had totally convinced myself that this was the month, loads and loads of symptoms and then yesterday af :( why is it never my month or my turn. Gonna arrange for another blood test for cd21 this month so I can see if I ovulated but then if I’m still not am gonna just feel like giving up and buying animals and being that crazy animal lady! My friend also told me yesterday that she’s going to start trying in the new year, which don’t get me wrong I’m pleased for her BUT she’s gonna fall before me and I know it will send me deeper into a pit of self loathing. Can anyone else relate to me?