6 long weeks of miscarriage

7 weeks ago today (5th Sep) took a home pregnancy test, I was so excited to see the very prominent 2nd line come up. I am lucky enough to have 2 beautiful boys (13 & 8) weren’t trying as such, but I was over the moon. On the 7th Sep I had slight cramps & brown thick spotting. Rested up & it didn’t subside, saw Dr on the 8th who ordered bloods to check HCG & another 48 hrs later with a follow up booked on the 11th - That day my heart completely broke, I have never felt that anguish before, I was told I was “likely miscarrying” & to take the wait & see method. Loads of dr visits, sitting in the gyno waiting room (bellies everywhere) & HCG levels were not dropping quick & bleeding was consistent, on 26th Sep was admitted into hospital (for obs) as I had severe pain in my right ovary. Anyway long story short this went on for 6 whole weeks with no visible clots/tissue loss although did have constant watery dirty blood. No-one gets my pain or daily anguish. I don’t know how to recover 😥 I should be revealing my pregnancy not explaining my loss. I’m so heart broken. 😔