4 months in and I am slowly quitting and lowering my milk supply. I exclusively pump because of latching issues early on. Breastfeeding kept me from being the mom I needed to be and was taking a toll on my mental health. I have struggled with my mental illness for years and not being able to take the medications I need to get better was too difficult for me. I needed to quit so I can adequately take care of my baby and my mental health. I felt like a horrible mom and like I was being selfish. My SO told me that "you're not a bad mom, you are a good mom. If you would've put yourself through this unnecessary struggle for your own pride and not take care of yourself that would make you a bad mom"