Me and my partner have been ttc for 5 months. The other night he cried to me about wanting nothing more then to be a father and i feel worthless... i really dont have friends to talk to other then I ave family but i look at this group as a support family. My doctors just keep spinning me in circles. Nothing brings my hopes down when they tell you "your to big to have a baby". i use to weigh 623 lbs but im 23 and down to 388. I have always dreamed of being a mother and soon im going to be a wife. nothing on this earth is going to bring me down more if i cant give my loving soon to be husband a child that he wants. Some times i cry myself to sleep because i feel its all my fault...I feel horrible and i feel like i should give up and stop trying. Everyone around me is having babies left and right and i just want 1. Af is coming in 10 days and im praying that she doesnt show up so i can surprise my husband when i say "I Do".. if she does then i dont know what to think. just another month of praying and hoping for my baby cecil to arrive and show up on a test