Not feeling good enough

I don’t know if it’s just my hormones or just me in general but I have very low self esteem like I was bullied a lot while I was in school I’m now homeschooled as a senior but anyway I fell in love with this dude but I feel like I’m not good enough for him he barely texts me and when he left to go to the bathroom I saw a Snapchat from someone named hope and we all know hope is usually a girls name I didn’t ask him about it because I didn’t want it to seem like I’m snooping and he’s always bringing up how other girls are so hot or how he would do her and he’s always liking other girls pictures like I’ve changed my hair changed my look and I just never feel like I’m enough