I’m no longer trying to conceive, I tried for 5 years already it’s not happening. Maybe I’m just not meant to be a mother, maybe I’m just meant to look after other people’s kids. I’m fed up with people telling me “maybe one day” or “ how awesome it’s to feel pregnant” even though I’m happy for them it hurts me to know I’ve been trying for so long and it just don’t happen.. Today I woke up and I told myself I had enough, maybe I’ll be a mother someday maybe I won’t.. Today I will be happy and stop trying I will not let this put me down, today I will talk to my husband about adoption in our near future. This decision makes me smile!