Stretch marks making me feel suicidal..

It's embarrassing to talk about because it seems so superficial. But I really struggle with my body image. I thought I would love and wouldn't care about my post pregnancy body. But I absolutely hate it. I feel disgusting and unwanted. I feel resent towards my baby, which I know is awful because I love them so much but I just can't control it. The stretch marks on my stomach make me want to stab my stomach. And I absolutely hate the stretch marks on my boobs it looks awful and I've never felt uglier in my life. I hate my body and wish I didn't have to look in the mirror. I'm sorry I just needed to vent