I'm 34 years old, married and have 5 kids. I'm not going to say that I'm the best mom or wife, I've made mistakes and I'm far from perfect. Recently, I've been feeling sad, stressed, broken down and unappreciated. When I feel this way I cry and I don't like when my husband or kids see me this way, all they do is look and they don't say anything. My kids ask (like they do every weekend) "what are we doing today?" My response is always nothing much and we usually stay home. But today when they asked, I told them if they wanted to go to the movies or go to the arcade, they picked the arcade. My husband goes to drop off the older 4 but it turns out that the arcade will not let kids under 8 be there without an adult. My oldest is 17 and the 4th youngest is 7, so they weren't allowed to stay. The hubby calls and asked what should they do now? He had me on speakerphone and I was giving them other options, like go to the movies, trampoline park or bowling. My 7 & 11 year old both wanted to go to either the trampoline park or bowling but the older 2 were not having it. Meanwhile I'm at home feeding my 1 year old, making my coffee and making some food for the hubs and I. My husband ends up coming back home with all 4 kids and I questioned why they didn't want to go bowling or go to the trampoline park? They just said they didn't want to go to either of those places because they've never been there before and they don't know if they would like it. Um ok, how about give it a try? So that just put me in a pissy mood and I sent them to go clean their rooms and to not ask what we are doing the rest of the day. I have refried beans simmering (so that they can thicken up) and I went to wash the dishes from last night. My husband says I'm going to cut the dogs hair, I asked him if he could wait and before I could finish what I wanted to say, he yelled "wait for what to clean? You want me to clean first before I cut his hair?" I yelled back "wait to eat first. I'm almost done with the dishes and it will only take a few minutes to fry up some eggs". He yelled back "don't make me any food" and is now mad at me. I stayed in the kitchen finishing the last of the dishes, tears rolling down my face, thinking this is what I get for trying to get my kids out of the house so that they don't have to be at home all "bored" and for wanting to make sure that my hubby eats before he starts the lengthy process of cutting our dogs hair?! I shut off the stove, told my husband that everything is there for when he's ready to eat (he can cook for himself at this point) all while choking back my sobs and he doesn't even look up at me or responds. I'm now in my bedroom crying and feeling down....sorry for being the worst 😔