I have really struggled to stay positive, happy, and excited about this pregnancy. I had a miscarriage back in May of this year I was approximately 7 weeks. I have a son who is my pride and joy and turned two in July. This was my second miscarriage I’ve had. I am diabetic and they think that’s what caused my recent miscarriage. Who really knows though. I should be 11 weeks today, according to the ultrasound I had almost two weeks ago where I measured 9 weeks 1 day. I saw a heart beat at 8 weeks and at the 9 week 1 day ultrasound— 172 bpm. I haven’t seen the doc in about two weeks, and I just can’t seem to think or feel like everything is going to be okay. My anxiety has skyrocketed... no bleeding, cramping or anything but I can’t seem to move past the way I feel. I don’t know how to stay positive. I am extremely moody and emotional. I cry a lot.. and just terrified. My husband is super supportive but I just can’t find anything to help calm me or comfort me. I’ve turned to god for peace and prayer but I still can’t move past it. I go back on Tuesday to the same doctor (specialist) and office where I had found out about the miscarriage and I’m so overwhelmed and nervous I can’t stand it. I almost question if my anxiety is unhealthy or a cause for concern. I know I can’t change anything and that whatever happens will happen and I will deal with it as it comes, but God I pray that I can have some normalcy and be able to carry this baby. My husband is the only person who knows and it makes me sad that I can’t even share the potential news until I feel a little more in the clear. I try to read up on rates of miscarriage after seeing a heart beat and with my condition and everything and even with low statistics I can’t seem to find comfort. I don’t mean to complain and harp so much.. I am really just at a loss and need some guidance, prayers, anything. I even bought a home Doppler hoping I could hear something, and of course I know it’s too early but I was hoping. Trying to stay focused and wait on Tuesday to get here to hopefully receive some good news.