I am so drained. My 9 month old has slept with me since 1/2 months.. I have had zero and I mean zero brakes since because he naps with me still (will only do 30 min in his swing) and he refuses to go down at bedtime without me.

I don't want to let him cry but..

My marriage is suffering.. we have NO time to talk and I mean not even 2 min. My 5 year old burst into tears demanding attention and acts out if we even try...

My 5 year old is suffering and desperately need more of my attention. I always have to say no to snuggle her and I always have to let her watch cartoons while I let my son nap with me.

It sounds terrible but I have tried everything..

I DONT want to let him cry but I think it's my last resort and only option because my whole family is literally falling apart and suffering. I desperately just need some down time for myself.. someone tell me it's ok to let him cry 😭

I sleep trained my daughter when she was 7 months and it worked like a charm but she didn't get as hysterical as my son and she also didn't sleep and nurse with me so it just adds to my guilt..

But I'm feeling so soo sooo stretched I can't give enough of me to everyone that needs me can't even give to myself... it's like someone has to lose out and so far it's been me, my husband and 5 year old. I am absolutely SICK of telling my daughter no And SICK of feeling stretched and like I can't give my kids what they need. I desperately NEED my son to sleep.