been ttc 15 yrs. feeling hopeless. i get so jealous of every pregnacy announcement. my baby sister just gave birth 5 months ago with baby number 3 and just found out she is pregnant with baby number 4. here i am childless desperately wanting one of my own. i now have 20 nieces and nephews. and it really hurts. WHY?????? When is it my turn???. How do you deal with the pain? I'll be 34 in 6 days. and every yr i hate my birthday because it's another yr my aching arms are empty.