Trigger Warning Miscarriage

five days ago I was pregnant, I was happy, I guess ignorance is bliss. It all started four days ago, first it was a bit of spotting, then more bleeding so I went to the ER and they said it was a threatened miscarriage, that night I lost my baby, I was really hoping this one would stick, now I'm here heartbroken, I do have one beautiful child but I've now lost five other children and the pain from that never goes away, my husband is afraid to try again because he hates seeing me like this and I honestly feel guilty that I want to try again so soon, but as soon as I stop bleeding I want to start trying again :(