So life lately has been determined to beat the s**t out of me. Recently my older brother lost a friend to a car accident which was a loss for all of us as he grew up visiting us and I remember quite a few times we'd play fight and be wollies😂 Was grieving that loss when my grandma lost her batter with breast cancer 14 years she was fighting the demon before h er body couldn't take it anymore 😭 Worse part was I couldn't go say good bye and have no idea where her ashes are to even talk to her one last time.😥 Not even a week after I lose grandma a close friend of my partner and I passed away unexpectedly and that tore open the lives of a lot of people around us! (including ourselves 😭) I'm now feeling emotionally and physically exhausted from all the grieving and was looking forward to my 20th (8th Oct) and then I lost my smudgy girl (bunny) on the 5th and that broke my heart even more and I then lost her mum on the 7th and had to burry her too 😥😭😥 my pets got me through my misscarrage five years ago that had me highly suicidal. I then FINNNALLLLYYYY think life has finished kicking me while I'm down and mum just found out she has breast cancer. And I just can't cope at the moment every night I'm drunk if not I don't sleep due to the stress of it all.

I'm sorry for just leaving this here but I have to get it all off my chest 😥😥