I’ve been with my boyfriend, now fiancé for 8 months now. I’m 10 weeks pregnant. The baby was an accident (not that I regret the baby) I love my unborn child already so much. Found out I was pregnant with baby being 6 months together.

Now I look at him and feel absolutely nothing.

He’s terrible with money, I’ve talked and have addressed it many times. I’m now living with him, and he lives with his parents. We talked about getting our own place and moving in together (before baby) then finding out about baby changed a few things obviously. We both have full time jobs, but both don’t really make enough to get a place and save for baby. I’m not opposed to staying at his parents house, especially for saving money. And his parents are very supportive and sweet (which I’m very grateful for) But when I asked when he would like to get out he said in the next 2 years.

I’m a get stuff done kind of person and he’s a go with the flow kind of guy.

He also goes to his friends and drinks, which is fine but whenever he goes he doesn’t come back at night. He always says that he might be back, but if he “drinks too much” that he’ll have to stay the night. Why just not drink where you can’t drive? I don’t understand it.

I really want this to work, but we have such different goals. And I know I have faults, I’m can get very stubborn and have a detached personality. But I’m trying to better myself, especially for the baby.

I grew up in a very emotionally, physically abusive home when I was little. My father was a raging alcoholic and druggie. My parents hated each other (understandably for my mother) but neither cared about me and my 4 siblings, leaving me to raise them.

I know life isn’t easy, and making a life with a partner isn’t easy, but I just feel bad that I don’t love him anymore. He’s excited about the baby (which is good.) He says he loves me and I believe him, I care about him very much, I just don’t love him.

I’m know I’m not a victim, I’m just confused what to do. Some advice would be wonderful, but please don’t be rude. I just want some constructive advice. Thank you ladies for taking the time to read my rant.