Was gonna break up with my bf but then something else happened ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„

I kept playing this scenerio since Saturday morning about breaking up & going our seperate ways because we both decided we wanted different things(he wants marriage & kids ASAP after only been together for 11 months & I want to finish my Uni course & get a job). WELLLL, I was mentally prepared about breaking up with him face to face once he picked me up to go to his place & I had a whole essay written down in my mind about how itโ€™s gonna go down. Instead he just watches his movie in silence while iโ€™m lying in bed & then he comes into bed & we start talking BUT neither one of us want to bring up the topic about the โ€œfuture.โ€ Next thing I know, weโ€™re having a passionate make out session then it was clothes off & weโ€™re doing missionary first then FINALLY the position Iโ€™ve always wanted to do... & thanks to porn, I was able to lol the โ€œCowgirlโ€ my goodness it felt so good that I didnโ€™t want it to end ๐Ÿ˜‚. Iโ€™m thinking โ€œI finally got to ride his dick just when Iโ€™ve decided I wanna break up with him ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ™„.โ€ But anyway now I feel emotional & stressed about the whole situation because as much as I love him, I am not ready to settle down & he understands. He says heโ€™s getting older & he wants to start a family(heโ€™s 29 and Iโ€™m 24). But I donโ€™t wanna keep wasting his or my timr if thereโ€™s no progress in this relationship. I have a strong gut feeling he doesnโ€™t wanna break up in person but via text once he drops me off at my place because the emotions are too much for him. Personally, I prefer finding closure in person.

I need tips & advice on how to go through with it...