69 days and counting!

Jill

I got off bc in April and we have been Ttc ever since. I’m 29 and my husband is 32. My cycles have been so long since coming off the pill from 40-49 days. This cycle is especially long! I’m on day 69! I just want to cry.... I got a positive opk test randomly on the 28th and 29th of oct. if that’s true I’m like 4 dpo...this is so not normal! I’m going to the obgyn on Monday but I just have no idea what to expect. I’m so scared. I just want to be a mom. Why is this so hard!