AF is a B****

For the past 2/3 months she didn't let me a slight piece of hope coming earlier and earlier..

This month my OPKs were positive while still on it and stayed positive until I gave up testing after 15 days ..

Numerous BFN up to this day..

and this morning I woke up panicking because of this too familar pain ( everytime she shows up in the middle of the night and wake me up in horrible pain) I thought.. yay a little less early this time...

I've been feeling the same exact way I do on my first day of period ( in other words like pure crap) but NO period !!

I feel like my body is playing jokes me !! Almost 2 years TTC and I'm tired of this !!

so now I'm waiting .... with Ibuprofen in my hands because I know it's gonna be a bad one !