Ok, so I'm cuddle hungry... or, "needy". Problem is, in not in a relationship with anyone right now, and the one person I told myself not to fall for... I'm falling for...

he's a best friend of mine whom I previously friendzoned. But now I'm lonely. And cuddle hungry. And needy. And all I want to do right now is hold his hand And feel him holding me. I want to nuzzled my head into his neck and hear his heartbeat... And I know he still likes me, and If I told him I was crushing on him he wouldn't waste any time before he pushes me into a really serious relationship. But I know, that with my mental help problems, that a relationship wouldn't be a very great idea for me and my brain. And the only reason I want him is because I'm lonely... So how do I get rid of cuddle hunger? And how do I shut down the idea of a relationship with someone, when I think I love them but really don't?? Aahhhineedhelp

Thank you for helping, if you did. ^-^ <3 <3<3